E = MC square

Beautiful mess

2009-12-27T23:34:00.001-08:00

One day He sat in HIs working chair and starting day dreaming.. all the angels bursting around and brought Him many equipment.. some of them prepared the working page while others brought cans of various pencils, hugged colourful ink, carried crayons, opened the markers and clean the brushes .. They help Him drew what has already in His mind… After finished, He went out and looked at the world, chosing a woman’s womb as His studio to weave what He had drawn..as well as He chose the right family where His creation can grow n live well..

She is a beautiful masterpeice in His eyes and He promised to always lead her life’s paths with His Love, His Words and His Holy Spirit…

When the time gone by, she became a grown up.. be more tangled up with these imperfection people..

Tirade she heard, trapped in disputed atmosphere… started revamping the soul..

The world she looked, ran in chaotically… started breaking the heart..

The people she praised, two-faced… started discouraging the spirit..

But be grateful He keeps His promise…

as She’s jus a beautiful mess in His eyes…..

and once He said… “I really love.. to clean up the mess"

Beautiful mess

2009-12-27T23:34:00.000-08:00

My condolonces for MJ

2009-07-06T23:02:00.000-07:00

This note is my own opinion through what i know and read..

Few days ago we've been surprised by the death of the King of Pop MJWandering the newspaper..got me the THRILL(er) atmosphere..
Saw fans around the world hold their breath..SCREAM in silence n swept the tears Mourning his death..but once he said he was lonely..
Realized that so many people inspired by his dance n performance,but he could not accept himself and changed his apperance BLACK to WHITE
Read back his path in successful career and unsuccesful life..then what's best in life? what's worth living for?

Flooding by MJ's news for a couple of days made me write this note to remind all of you about few things:
1. Bad attitude and influence is easy to pass on and unfortunately very very easy to pass down Children's brain haven't detailed developed as they can't differentiate which right or wrong.So they jus copy what they saw..
MJ was physically and emotionally abused by his father from a young age,it caused him a trauma and false interception about his own image.. he also not fullfil with the right love, a child should receive to grow in appropriate way.He walked his grown up life with a soul full of bitter wound and incompleteness..

2. A good relationship is the most important thing..What an irony to see thousands of people cried when he died.. But where they are when he lived..MJ once stated that he suffered a loneliness.. Beside there's always a missing piece which can be fullfill only by Godsometimes people jus be there in special occassion.. not on a daily life..sometimes people are jus not care enough about their neighbours and surroundings.or sometimes they build walls instead of bridges..[NB: I saw someone looks older because of her bad feelings..Im trying to help!! but she build walls :( ]
From his song "Heal the World", i think he already understood this truth.. So..Pay attention and keep in touch with people you love.

3. God's love made each of us very unique and amazingly great according to His imageWe are under His previlege to have a great self-esteem and always say gratitude..

Do you guys know that when he was found, there's only damage bones and skin left because of the bleaching n surgical effect..??And now the world remembered him for eternal but where his soul goes for eternal life?

I can't say..nobody knows his deepest heart..My condolences for him..

Gold Verse : "For what profit has a man, if he gets all the world with the loss of his life? or what will a man give in exchange for his life?" (Matthew 16:26)

Eerything to me

2009-05-21T23:55:00.000-07:00

My biggest mistake in my life was..
I likely claimed silently in my heart that everything which is not good will happen to me.
A shallow perspective of my life at the moment.
and I got the effects many many years later..

My feeling started to cover by fears and worries as I saw or heard bad things..
By the time goes by they increase steep in..not jus by seeing or hearing bad things.
but imperfect things to be precise..
For the world are so imperfect... by the events which happened inside..
Caused by the people that live inside..

How can I survive? I tried to avoid many things..
but there are many bad things inevitable to see or hear.
Then I found the truth that human are jus far from perfect.
Only God is..

Only God is..
made me seek Him every nite..
Only God is..made me greed Him more..
And For His love for me..
To my spirit, He is my saviour
to keep me eternal..
To my mind, He is my compass
to keep me in positive direction..
To my body, He is my touch
to keep me sensed..
To my soul, He is my comforter
to keep me peaceful..
To my dreams, He is my hopes
to keep them alive..
To my life He is my sanctuary
And to my heart He is everything to me..

But, I keep struggling today..
I need to be saved from myself...

Singleness

2009-05-18T00:33:00.000-07:00

Human kind or sometimes we called human being to represent each individual on this earth was created by God to complete their own existance and complete the world with their existance..which made us an individual as well as a social creatures..
As an individual..we held up an ego by becoming self-absorbed selves..and pretended not perceiving what happened to the surroundings.
As a social we tended having relationships with others, longing for someone to notice us or might have compassion to the unlucky ones..

To elucidate about human being, one philospher said we could approach the origin of being by deviding it into three world which are the material existence as physical objects and state. (body), the emotion (soul) and the spirit (human spirit). These three worlds demanded each to be satisfyingly fulfill to reach completeness.. Most of people sat around waiting for someone to come along..playing it safe, living in their tiny world, doing ordinary things aimlessly and just hoping.. No one came along and unfortunately, there are energies and time wasted on waiting.. Even though someone has come, our natural way to complete that 3 facets is by taking what belong to others. Others materials or others emotions in order to comfort our “incomplete” zone..
If you notice, that is why the search for meaning in our existance arises in each one of us at some time in our lives.

When these “incomplete” people commiting to knit a relationship.. unconsciously they’ll take each others to reach completeness.
To give more understanding.. picture there’s two glasses of water at same size which is half empty.. to full one glass we need to pour the water from the second glass and the result is one glass full.. one glass is empty..
Or second picture..one glass is full and the second one is half empty.
And to make a balance contain, each glass can not be full either.
When we..ourselves is not a full man or full woman.. we’ll taking each others while the relationship goes.
Or have u ever heard about people who can’t live without a spouse??
This is what they do..when one relationship ended.. They will be looking for another ASAP.
And the result is… They never ever be fullfil.. never feel complete and never ever satisfy… by whoever in their side at the moment.

Maybe most people saw singleness as a matter of shame and trying so hard to find a spouse by listening other opinions sometimes even by reducing their fullness.
But God has a beautiful purpose on singleness..
He wants you to complete your own existance through Him and then share yourself to the world.
You can think over your life and the passions He has placed in your heart,the activities you enjoy, the ways you like to serve people, the times you have been most fulfilled.
Explore His creativity and beauty in this world by your own certain way..
Uncovering your interests and began to seek your calling..
Live life to the fullest for the Lord and the benefit of others.
God has made beauty and each one beautiful.
Seek out beauty, create it, and share it with others.
And in the middle of all of that.. you will find someone running along with you…

♥ Stephie

Life's Idiosyncrasy

2009-05-12T00:22:00.000-07:00

Since two years ago..
Since the first time He have touched my life in the nick of time of need.
Since that day and so forth..
Perceptible wisdoms often came up from my heart in percieving a profound meaning of an occurence in someone's else life or mine.
He elucidated it as succinct as possible...
Suffice it to say that this is a life's idiosyncrasy.
All this wisom somehow just provide a solution in this problematic world..
And just some with extraordinary traits can..

Two days ago..I was having a cell group after being absence for 2 weeks.
There I was... with something's missing..sat on His feet asking Him to restore..my heart.. my soul..and my love for Him.
Then He brought me to steep in His grace..

In that span of time He reminds me about my first week in this beautiful month...
Reminds me that I already got some present in advanced.. and most of it glaring my eyes.. from the things itself as well as the popping-eye price. .
Reminds me that, all of that stuff can be apply on my physical appearence to impress people.As I do really feel beautiful in humans eyes...

Then in the next span of time..
I realize this is important too, to feel beautiful in His eyes.
Devinely He shows that beautiful in His eyes are nothing more.. and nothing less..than adorn a heart with love, than crown a mind with hollyness, than yearn a soul with Holy Spirit.
That beautiful in His eyes are nothing more.. and nothing less.. than hand a task with the best, than said a word with full faith, than see a future with hopes..

Love, Stephie..

Acknowledgement

2009-05-02T02:41:00.001-07:00

First day.. I finally made the decision. I'm becoming a member of bloggers. Aware enough to believe that I can maintain it at least by everymonth posting.. Hope more often... ;p
I will give a short brief, about why I choose E=MC square as a title.
Because, recently I'm sort of having a credence that energy does exist to create any of this we call reality..

In a physics appliance...E is an Energy..
Energy which moves a cotton an inch.. energy which lifts a load a metre ... energy which produces a gear an electricity... or energy which only gestures a lawn a little bit.. is equal to the multiplication of a mass (matter) to squared speed of light.. In this point, the fixed number is the speed of light.. If a mass is bigger, it will bring the result that bigger energy is produced, the bigger amount can be moved, the easier life people can get.

In a phycologic appliance...E is also an Energy..
Energy that creates a convenience surrounding.. energy that supports an optimistic dreaming... energy that makes possibility in everything.. is equal to the multiplication of a mass (read:a person) to squared conscience.. In this point, the fixed number is the mass. So, if a conscience is kinder, or nicer, or better, it will bring the result, that kinder, nicer, better energy is produced and the kinder, nicer, better life people can get..